Happy Little Talks

*slams car door

"Dad, sorry ah.. its only today .. cos the lesson was cancelled the last time.. then today was a make up.. so i have to rush down.. so..."

"it's okay.. no problem .. i'm free what"

"no.. then sorry you have to come out again.. then did mummy ask you? don't tell her k.. later she scold you.. then later she say me again.. cos today the lesson here until quite late.. then have to.."

"its ok, girl.. you don't have to explain.. its ok"

"oh.."

"are you hungry?"

"eh. no. thanks dad."

"i should have brought the bread for you.. later you hungry .."

"its ok..haha.. i have choclates.. you want?"

"chocolates is a meal meh? you tired or not? "

"no.. its ok too"

"sorry, girl.."

"ah.. why?"

"sorry you have to rush like this"

"oh... no la"

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"妈啊，我还在orchard。和朋友讲话"

"orh. eat what?"

"hahaha. 日本餐loh"

"好不好吃？"

"not bad leh.. 改天带你去吃"

"ok." *smiles

*smiles over the phone back.

"我们俩个而已ah。。。hahaha"

"hahaha.. ok loh"

"hahaha"

"hahaha"

"我今天有吃晚餐"

"ok. 等你一起吃， 小心一点"

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"teacher, my structured cloze improved right?"

"yes, not bad! keep it up!"

"i improved ever since you teach me"

"really? that is so sweet of you...Awww."

"yah loh.. roy (his previous tutor) cannot be bothered to teach one la.."

"so i teach better right?"

"ya la.. of course."

"you want to eat sweet? say, what kind of sweet you like to eat?"

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*whisper whisper

"girl.. *whisper whisper... not happy... *whisper whisper...you ah... *whisper.. care or not?"

*footsteps up the stairs

*my room door opens

"girl.. i heard your mummy say that you like not very happy like that?.. really ah? why?"

"no. la. nothing. tired maybe."

"don't teach so much la.. stay up so late also.. sleep early "

"its not that.. ok.. you sleep early also"

"is something wrong? what happen? "

"no la.. nothing really.. pa.. tomorrow got work.. you better go and sleep first"

"ok.. you also ah.. good night"

"'night"

*walks downstairs

"girl say nothing what?!"

"YOU AH.. really leh... ARGH! ... shhhh.. *whisper whisper... then ah.. your... then ah.. her... i think hoh...."

"is it?!"

"yah la.. "

"you talk very loudly leh.. you think she heard?"

"where got? you then talk very loudly ah... aiya.. don't want to talk to you already la... watch tv!"

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pictures.. next post.. like anyone cares... hahahaha..

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i told you that it is going to be ok.. most likely you don't believe it.. but for the sake of both of us.. i think you pretend that it may be..

but i tell you.. i am scared too.. so many "what if"s.. somehow .. telling you is so much easier than telling myself... i find myself thinking about it more often than i like it..

you also once told me that i am silly..that what i have done, no one appreciates...and what i should i do.. i never did.. you know.. i think so too..

i try ok?