am i happy?

" It was at that time that I thought about Thomas Jefferson writing that Declaration of Independence. Him saying that we have the right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. And I thought about how he knew to put the 'pursuit' in there, like no one can actually have happiness. We can only pursue it."

i watched " the pursuit of happyness" yesterday... i thought it was worth it.. just because will smith is in it.. oops .. and i mean the movie is meaningful ...yup..really deep stuff and all..

ok seriously i thought it was a nice feel-good movie to catch.. really makes you want to work hard and appreciate what you got...

the quote struck me when i heard it.. i mean don't we all? why do we work hard then ? why do we hold on and not give up? all in the pursuit in our own definition of happiness...

i read this quote to him.. and he said that (actually i don't really remember what you say...sorry) pursue sounds like a word that you use for something that you chase and pine after but never get..and that is incorrect.. as happiness is all around you just whether you see it or not..

i hope thats what he said .. ahaha.. ahem..

but i feel that certain happiness do have to be pursued... so that one can enjoy the race and learn from the experiences ... and look back and tell yourself that it is all worth it.. cos you are doing it for someone you love or for something that you believe in.

i believe that happiness is achieved when you start accepting something in your life.. like when you accept Christ or you accept that you have done your best for certain issues or accept a prize/gift/money/gucci bag/diamond ring/apple pie and everything nice..

ahem..

everything becomes easier and clearer when you start looking into what you have accepted
by accepting you will stop picking on it and gradually find out what is really good about it... no matter how small or big it is.

but...what if... at the end of the day, you still cannot accept it.. what then?

hmmm... siyun gave me a good answer to that question...you can ask her yourself but you are not getting it out of me.. lets not tell them siyun.. let it be our little secret... muahahaha.. all ye ignorant fools.. muahahaha..

but i think you know the answer already.

what would you do if you can't accept things as it is?