i guess this will always be a place that i will never feel a sense of belonging to

maybe its my mentality when i first stepped into the place
maybe its how anti-social i am
maybe its the people and how i don't think i can fit in.
maybe there is an underlying hostility that just purely exists... hahahaha... everything is an evil conspiracy. muahahaha!

unconsicously there is this nagging reluctance to turn up for lessons and the general urgency to get out of the place

and its got nothing to do with the subjects... as long as i am not doing maths i'm alright.

like how it is a good and conducive place to study yet you somehow feel unwelcome.
i feel judged.

but then again.. i may be making someone else feel this way too.
ha

actually i don't care
sales will be starting
one more year and i will be out

whee! and i shall stop being mean too... ya.. that remark on the phone was unwarranted for ... and i think i was being mean too .. hmmm..