Happiness lies in your hands?

just this thought that has been in my mind these past few days? weeks? i don't know. time seemed to matter less now don't you think? As you grow, you just seemed to live for the next deadline/exam/event. Unless someone asked me for the date, i may not even know what month i am in now. sometimes i even wrote down 2004 as my date. seriously i think i am rewinding my life unconsicously.

So many times i woke up wondering what day it was ..can't seem to keep track of time.

thats not the point of the post today.

i kept thinking about people that i have met. and i realise that some of my friendships, in fact all relationships are miracles. you realise that some times if you didn't do a certain action or attend a certain event/occassion, you might have missed your potential other half or friends?

and i always wonder is there really the ONE for you. To me, one is overrated. i believe there are many. it should be the FIRST ONE instead.

take for example, a widow who remarries. if she really loved the late husband and he was the ONE for her, then who is the one with her now. the second ONE? then there is no such thing as the ONLY one for you, no?

and can you imagine, if something happens you end up in another school or workplace, its a totally different scenario then. You may never get to know your current friends at all.. maybe to some of you, that might not be a bad thing.

and just maybe say i get 2 points more or less in my O levels .. i may have ended up in another school altogether. i may have known different friends. i may have ended up with some guy, totally ruined his life, maybe turned him gay.. something along that line. shit suddenly i feel like i got lots to bring across but my vocabulary has shrunk so much that even when i re-read my post, i don't understand what am i exactly saying too. i am INCOHERENT!

anyway..

i also wonder. if you have someone you love and want to accompany (lets be cheesy) till the end of time, what will happen if one day you forgot that there is such a person... say maybe you got brainwashed, or woke up from a long dream(hahaha..ahem..anyway). you will end up with another one no? you will not have known how much you have once loved this certain someone else. i think what is painful in a lost love is not that you lose the person, its when you realise that she/he has moved on and you have not. make sense?

i think i should lay off watching the replays of taiwanese replays while having lunch at home. seriously.

on a totally irrelevant plane. i need to go to the toilet.

for pictures, please go to google images and type in the word "the one".. i bet you get a lot of keanu reeves..

i was wrong.. but i did get the ring from "lord of the rings" .. THE ONE RING TO RULE THEM ALL..

my PRECCIIIOOUUUSSSSSSSSSSS..........