something's wrong with your face..

what's this?

this "o_O" look you give me when i tell you that i finish reading a book... all you ignorant fools think i am an airhead don't you?

hahaha!

so... i finished reading this...

"o_O"!!!

i finally got to read it and i understand why so many people made it their favourite book. contrary to some code book written by some brown guy... yawn..

i like the way he writes... its simple yet elegant.. sometimes you don't need big profound language to bring across the views or ideas you want to transmit..

its short ... only 177 pages... definitely shorter than most of the notes you are cramming now.. and one of the few books i read cover to cover... this book writes about following your dreams using what you have and not depending on fate (and not blaming everything on fate when things go wrong).. and how everyone has a destiny mapped out for them .. that as long as they put their heart to it... they will find it.

i don't feel like going into a full-blown review now.. just go and read it..

it does set me thinking... about people who follow their dreams... there are some who went against the opposition and follow their ideals in life.. i am not talking about those who breaks the law.. there is a distinction between desires and dreams..

but those who stick to their beliefs and continue to press on regardless of the difficulties they face. say a person who graduated with a prestigious degree only to slog it out in front of a wok.. or become a missionary or to be a volunteer in dangerous and politically unstable countries... can you imagine a loved one doing that? would you not discourage him? understand the pressures that they face? especially in our kind of society?

i used to think that they are selfish, going about their merry way and making everyone else worry about them.. but now i understand that it takes a lot of guts and willpower to just drop everything that you work for and go... not easy ... i don't think i can just relinquish everything i have and drop all responsibilites and tell myself that "hey.. lets do that" .. i think of failures ... before i start something.. i am thinking of alternatives if i should fail... and once i find it.. its "heck.. alright.. let's relax... there's the safety net now" or i don't have the tenacity to follow through... its "aww man... this is tough.. i am not cut out for this" or "what the hell.. this sucks.. screw this .. i am going to do something i like ... life's too short for this kind of shit i get "

sigh..

i am not saying that this book is like the way to life or that suddenly i am smarter now and i know what i want in life.. nope.. i am still lost.. but it just got me thinking on a topic that has been on my mind for sometime now... and at this age where the education life is ending soon and the working life is starting soon.. and where tuition is waning and julia has more free time on her hand.. i just start thinking more...

bad for health i tell you... the sales better be starting soon... no sale = no motivation to shop.. and more time to be potentially depressed...

so then ... whats my dream you ask me?

maybe not today.. i am lazy...

HAHAHAH! so maybe me not being able to follow my dreams is just plainly due to my laziness huh?

SHIT! its past midnight and i still have not finished my assignment ... ARGH! and the lecturer seemed to like calling upon my row to answer his questions.. WHY? and my name is too easy to remember..

and there goes julia complaining again..

oh! today is Carine's birthday! happy birthday to you.. even though you might not get to read this... but thanks for the amazing friendship.. its really a miracle.. thanks for being such a great friend to a toot-toot long skirt girl. =) i appreciate you! hahahaha!

got to go.. bleah..