Dish of the day: apathy with a dash of cynicism

i have found the way to happiness.

forget about climbing mountains or sitting under the tree or waterfall to seek the truth.

i have the answer.

all i need from you is to enter your savings into the account number i am going to show you in a while.
remember to be generous. happiness increases proportionally with the money you deposit.

ok.
happiness is free.. thats the good news. but sometimes free things cost a lot .. so its all in the perspective of the person. kinda of like getting free phones when you sign up for mobile plans in singapore. hahahaha. what a joke.

its rather easy to achieve really.
although you might still be a wee unhappy after that. but hey.. thats for afterwards.. one emotion at a time people. complex emotions are not good.

okay.. i think the secret to happiness is apathy. the art of "bo-chap".
and the one best way to achieve apathy is to forget. its the forgiveness part that gets people down... bypass the forgiveness and concentrate on forgetting.. when you forget a grudge.. what's there left to forgive?

and i can tell you most people do it really well. and none of the sensitive new age thingie. apathy is the way.

with such attitude .. who cares what other people think? if i want to wear red underwear outside .. i can. i am original. just like superman. and the best part is i don't care what other people say . so what if they laugh?

some times people get hurt emotionally because some idiots don't know how to keep their mouths shut and spew garbage all over. this kind of mess is so hard to clear. so doesn't it help if someone was to say, " you are so super ugly and fat" and it doesn't matter to you because you don't really care to hear that comment from the person and you forget about it. its kind of like smelling body ordour on the mrt train.Sure its nasty but after a while its gone.

i realise that even people of talents and with brains and looks get really down in the dumps. i would think they have no reason to be unhappy.. but taking a look at their blogs on a good mood day makes me depressed too. why? i feel that is because they care too much about eveything else.

and i know sometimes when the expectations are darn low, any variations above the mark will make you really happy.

be apathetic people.

only catch is apathy cannot be controlled.. one day you think that "oh this thing doesn't matter". before you know it. everything else doesn't matter. dates, people, things of value. ...and then you become so self-centred that you don't even realise it.
you forget things. you disregard feelings, you ignore matters of importance .. and you really focused on superficial things to make you happy.

and sure you get happy. but the happiness period get shorter and shorter each time but you demand a higher and higher level of satisfaction . you will be constantly seeking it. finding it within your grasp and then losing it again. this endless vicious cycle that sucks you in like quicksand.

gradually.
to a black bottomless depth of emptiness
you lose your soul.

all these to keep some shit from pea-brains from mattering too much. all these to keep from feeling depressed. sure. you are alive. but so are zombies.

is it worth it?

some tend to mistake apathy for tolerance and confidance too.
don't you agree that having confidence you must first have a certain level of apathy too?

so..
instant gratification or bouts of depression but interlaced with minor victories or short bursts of joy?
before you know it. you are a one man island ... how do you connect to people when you don't even understand what they are feeling.. most of the time, it may even end up as "so what"s in your head whenever something happen.
before long, there will never be a question of "hmmm.. what should i do for others today?" but it will be replaced by "hey! where can't they do that for me?", "what did i do to deserve this?", "why is nothing good happening to me", "haha. they deserve that", "so? whats so special about that?"

scary isn't it?
you mean you don't feel this way?
oh.

hahaha. hmmm.. just a thought la.

i believe i said it before, the worst feeling to experience is not hatred or murder or depressed but indifference.