"so do you like your assessment books? so exciting right. bet you can't wait to go to school and start learning"

"eh.. er..very thick hoh"
(he keeps touching the stack of new assessment books. you know he actually love getting new assessment books... i do!)

"actually wanted to buy another maths book for you but i figure thats too much.. lets see which textbook they choose for you.. then we decide"

"ok loh..."
(he is practically brimming with excitement.. i taught him for almost two yrs, i know, he's the passive kind of guy)

"and then i think that is enough. still want you to have a childhood you know.. don't want you to look back and when people ask you what are you doing at 13 and you say your life is doing assessment books.. "

" ya.. you don't want me following your footsteps right?"

i was stunned la.. hahahaha.. and i burst out laughing... hahahaha... piece of shit. was i that transparent?

anyway.. have not been blogging for so long. not because i have no life. nothing wrong with just being alone. makes you evaluate your life a little. seek out the little victories in life and rejoice in them.

ARGH! I NEED TO SHOP SO BADLY!

~~(>_<)~~

i am...
still looking for my perfect box,
still trying to find the correct words to say to ease pain,
still trying to remember what i was trying to remember,
still trying to stop watching shows/ animes online... siyun, you are turning into me.
(eh black lagoon very unique right?)
still getting surprised everyday about how fast time is passing by.
(year end huh)

sigh. siyun just flew my kite. BOO SIYUN BOO.

anyway. for people who feel like life is like a vacuum cleaner now,
just remember that there is always someone here and you are never alone. no one may understand .. but there are many who still cared. i do. and if i could, i wish i can lessen the pain for you. i mean it. i know you are stronger than you think you are.