My cup is half empty.

I sometimes wonder. Where do all my energy come from in the morning? Well, it is definitely not from the sleep i get.

And now, as i am sitting here typing this... this thought of not having to sleep so that i don't have to wake up in the morning flashes through my mind.

It is like rush rush rush.. then dread dread dread.

What is this standard that i cannot seem to measure up against? Is it from work?
Who sets it? Is it others or just me?
What is this... i don't know... this "unsettle-ness"? am i constrained or am i just not good enough?

I was just thinking... when was the last time i met my friends? i had any social life? at the speed i am going.. i am thinking... will there be any guests at my wedding? Hahaha..

Or really? maybe i am impatient? Trying to rush things? Caring too much about opinions.. Greedy?

No answers. As usual.